God doesn't gossip.

"were your ears buzzing yesterday? because we were talking about you!"


God causes our ears to buzz or "tingle" but that's not because He's a gossip. He's revealing something to you. to me.


Ever woken up and felt like reality smacked you in the face, gave you a wedgie and then splashed ice-cold water in your face?  That was me on Monday. I woke up and it suddenly became oh-so-real that my lease is up on July 31st, the Grad program I want to go into is shut down until further notice and I don't have a long term career or prospect at this moment.  My Dad was encouraging me to think about what I wanted to do with my life, to think about what I was created to do. what was Mary Catherine created specifically to fill that only she can? "some need in the world that you are uniquely positioned to me" (steven furtick, sun stand still)


I immediately felt like I didn't know. I felt like my dreams as a little girl pretending to give a 'Best New Artist' interview to Entertainment Tonight or my college dreams of being a Motivational Speaker with a Masters in I/O Psychology were null-and-void.

"your vision will probably flow from something

 you're already doing--relationships you've already established,

 priorities you're already passionate about" (steven furtick)

I've mentioned before that when I get anxious or stressed I run around like a chicken with my head cut off and am unable to hear from the Lord in the midst of my melodramatic wailing sessions, so He decided to wake me up at 4:35 Tuesday morning and beckon me to spend time with Him.  I picked up where I left off in my current ready, Sun Stand Still (By Steven Furtick) and then felt led to read the story of when Samuel heard from the Lord in the middle of the night.

Like Samuel, the Lord has often tried to speak to me and I get confused or think I'm hearing things (" ' my son' Eli said, ' I did not call you, go back and lie down' " 1 Samuel 3:6)  But when Samuel finally responds to the Lord ( " 'speak Lord for your servant is listening' so Samuel went and lay down in his place" verse 9) the Lord gave Samuel (and myself) a very distinct way to identify when the Lord is speaking to us, especially when He is trying to tell us of things to come.... tingle.

"See I am about to do something in Israel that will make the ears

of everyone who hears of it tingle"

1Samuel 3:11

What is it that the Lord is causing

my ears to tingle about?

What need around me gets me excited

and causes me to bravely think

I was designed to meet it?

In the course of my day, what am I passionate about?

"if the dream in your heart isn't biblically based,

focused on Jesus,

affirmed by the key people in your life,

tethered to your passions, gifts and life experiences,

chances are,

you're way off prompt"

(steven furtick)

 I don't have an answer for you right now, but I am what I am doing is actively listening for the tingle....